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The Enemy Inside

by Black River Sanction

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1.
Miles Away 05:31
Give yourself a glimpse of the new world order Come in then lock the gates I'm the fat cat in charge Who lets the inmates date the guards You're gonna run em out when it's too late Cover your eyes… This may not be a pleasant thing to watch Never thought I'd find religion here But got hooked on single malt Scotch How do we survive? We haven't found the secret yet Chasing friends online is all we know And to really get creative we beat ourselves senseless Why don't we just pack our bags and go? Gotta get to the airport 22 miles to catch that plane If the shadow jumps that wall again I might just go insane The end of what I love is near Who can fly this bird with broken wings? Across the pond they're betting against The next savant that we crowned king Dark circles frame his eyes Uploads the database that tracks his known failures When friends arrive he polishes his act The change is subtle—otherwise he cracks He swears he's safe but shrinks from reality Why won't he expose his self-loathing malady? We're running in place here Wasting all these gifts to make ends meet No wonder we're lost This brilliant master plan was never even our idea But we subsidize its cost You can bring your dog to see me But don't expect to rid him of his fleas We buff the patient's chart here His treatment just might trigger a new disease What passes here for breaking news Just teaches kids to hate our views Whaddawe expect them to do? Hurry up already We're tryin to hold steady The more they fear the less we beg So let's just blow the powder keg Gotta get to the airport 22 miles to catch that plane If the shadow creeps outside again We'll all end up insane The noise is growing louder now She can't maneuver in reverse The rocks are bubbling underground Pick up the phone and call the head nurse please!
2.
Bless the mind of a quiet child Give him a reason to crack a smile He may not be a happy boy But there are moments he may enjoy Winter clothes from the discount bin A weary face shows where he's been The teachers miss his pleas for help He wishes he were someone else That's why he's so far from heaven Already three steps behind Too many lonely boys learn things the hard way You can't rule the playground on your own terms Every miscalculation costs you one turn Goes to work with hopeful eyes Wants to get noticed—that's no surprise Enters the meeting with fresh ideas Makes it look easy outgunning his peers He feels resentment as the group walks by They laugh at him but who knows why? Eats his lunch alone in the park The little girl stares and it breaks his heart That's why he's so far from heaven Can't leave his odd ways behind Some people dig trenches—they always learn the hard way You can't win them over on your own terms But that's the only way to go if you've got the nerve He runs upstairs to see who's there but never in time The telephone rings till he picks up—another dead line Kicks the wall and grits his teeth then pours some more red wine Deal with it! Friday night he hits the clubs With cash in his pockets lookin for love Scans the room for a friendly face A chance to show off his style and taste Stands aloof at the end of the bar Nervously jangling the keys to his car A beautiful woman glances his way He wants to move in but has nothing to say That's why he's so far from heaven Couldn't solve the mystery girl again So many lonely men gotta learn the hard way You can't crash the party on your own terms Once it's drained of energy it never returns
3.
Never was groomed to ride like a cowboy Much more at home in a cyberspace lab For fifteen minutes of fame and fortune I'd blow my cover What choice would I have? But look at me now I'm a real disaster Catch me on Twitter—the clues are there Nothing we build is sacred here The more we suffer the less they care Plant the seed and then withdraw Let it learn—then exploit the flaws And when the kids log on on the weekend They'll be part of this cause Better warn your people…better watch your back My shadow just coughed up this digital scream attack Year after year this addiction grows One day I'll be on my knees Crawling through holes is my new purpose Crack the code the firewall bleeds Scan your drives…your fragmented folders Encrypt your sensitive information I'll just double down and recruit more soldiers Protégés from the next generation The black seed wants to grow from within Cat…mouse…who's gonna win? And when the laptops grind to a halt You'll never find what the cat brought in Pull the servers offline so we don't get tracked My shadow just coughed up this digital scream attack Pop my pills in the shower A green one every hour Download that streaming video Pass around your audio clips Spread my germ to your home network Kiss the girl with tainted lips My iPhone buzzed 7:30 this morning They shot me a message I couldn't ignore This might sound like deranged paranoia But no one could explain what the app was for You're locked out now—it won't let you in The cat can only watch as the mouse plays gin And when the kids log on on the weekend You'll never know where they've been Didn't warn your people…now they're not coming back My shadow just coughed up this digital scream attack Mistakes were buried in the yard You rode me way too hard All the way down
4.
Staring at the mirror I don't even know my own face My mind spinning circles My world filled with empty space The light playing tricks on my sense of time When strangers come up to me I say I'm just fine Who can believe all this straightjacket logic? When people say they're schizophrenic Aren't they neurologic? There's so many of us reeling Wandering around Searching for clarity Focusing on inner sounds If all we need is love What's the fighting all about? They've stacked the cards against us And now they're shaking us down! Crackin up from chronic lack of REM sleep was bound to happen Howlin at the moon Whisper if you catch me nappin I seem to explode at the drop of a hat For no apparent reason So what's up with that? Blame the ugly side effects on all this medication I know I'm only schizophrenic But who needs such aggravation? Freedom is something none of us has So we lie to ourselves Have you ever noticed? They keep me in a lab conducting the most invasive tests My behavior makes them nervous Maybe they've got things to hide? My plan is to check myself out involuntarily Her smile will light my path See, I've done all the higher math… Needing just to be with her without raising expectations One wet kiss would be enough to energize my sensations But then I remember who I really am And the laughing gets the best of me I just don't stand a chance I must not be alone in here Coz even when it's dark This notion that I'm schizophrenic Tells me where to start
5.
Someone let you down Dealt you a hand you couldn't play out Made you afraid of life Gave you a reason for raising your knife But something brought you here You don't know what it is or whether it's real Like hourglass sand you're falling through space Searching for clues so you know what to chase Don't look around for a four leaf clover Don't get attached to your fortune cookie Nothing can save you from drowning your faith Or hatching a plot for the ultimate escape But everything you need is there staring back at you Once you let go of the enemy inside Everyone's waiting…we're all here to catch you So give yourself a gift—let go of the enemy inside Swimming against the tide You put your thumb out and got taken for a ride Lost all your dignity The audience laughed at your pleas for humanity Sometimes it helps to eat dirt With a newborn's perspective you'll rarely get hurt Just keep one eye open in case of attack Coz even your friends can put a gun to your back Don't be surprised when the storm flies over Don't burn the leaves on your neighbor's timetable Nothing can keep you from losing your touch Dark chocolate everyday? Hmmm….that's a bit too much! When all you need is me in there staring back at you You can let go of the enemy inside Don't keep us waiting for you to decide Listen to your heart—let go of the enemy inside Haven't you made a big fool of yourself? Even a blind man can see you need help Remind me to book the next date So you can rediscover what's been left on your plate Show you the rhythm machine If you get up and dance there's a chance you'll be seen Leave your computer alone It's a crutch and you know it—your chair ain't a throne How long has it been? Such a long time to waste Put the glass to your lips—all you need is one taste
6.
The biggest fools don't even know they're cursed Like the mother on smack who drained her pool While her kids barreled down the slide head first He busted down the penthouse door Then backed his threats with a baseball bat So they bounced his ass off the eighteenth floor And we watched him crash on his big hard hat It makes no sense the way we treat ourselves We must be on a suicide mission The fans won't cheer until we kill ourselves Maybe they're behind this suicide mission We could have more fun But the right's afraid of too much sex They put more faith in tanks and guns And kiss the crosses around their necks Across the border in a crowded trunk They scampered away in the desert sun The patrol hated quotas but was too damn drunk So he fired at random till the job was done Polls may change the way we see ourselves We lie about our suicide mission It takes real heart to wanna kill ourselves And finalize this suicide mission All across the globe People think TV makes sense They hang around in costumes like comic superheroes The unchecked imbalances have grown so immense How do you fix what we broke? We really choked! When the beach is gone And the lions are all extinct We can launch our private jets at dawn And get the fleet of SUVs in sync After earth's a distant memory Gonna start all over in outer space Whatever's out there better pack their things Coz they'll never be ready for the human race Despite tight rules we can't protect ourselves That's why we're on this suicide mission But it's never too late to reinvent ourselves So let's abort this suicide mission What did Jesus say?
7.
Helpless is all I can feel There's a plate in my head of reinforced steel Have patience they said We've done all we can this time I know it's wrong to hang your hat on a rack that don't belong But I was too young to realize the world wasn't mine When will the fog clear? To feel alive again I'll say goodbye and disappear How do these things happen? Maybe I'm just color blind They tried in vain to save his tender ego But she found a way to punish him with bullets and arrows They traded for the standard replacement Then left him in shock in the basement His hair in disarray They told me things they knew were false And never tried to fight the impulse Spent many days and nights behind the curtain Paralyzed with fear as they made their moves The pain's still sharp—it lingers on They left me with nothing but things to prove Too stoned to find the door So he curls up frightened on the floor Winter passes while he's away The doctors and nurses have nothing to say Take back my soul now All I see is red When I'm lost I'm found Back in bed Researchers can chart my decline I wanna be brave And take a dive off the coast to test the waves When I'm too far from the shore would you throw me a line? Put my trust in science That's the honest way back to self-reliance The lights have changed This man's no longer color blind He opened up the drawer to find the letter It said she had to get away for something better Their program enhanced his understanding His nightmare was over and soon he'd be landing
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We're not the enemy young man Wind up the game again Wash out the stain of friends You need to believe the answer lies deep in your prayers They can see you They can see me They're only guilty of lacking in sympathy In the early morning they come and go like dreams Your world is bleak and disconnected Maybe it's the company you keep Follow the road signs Signal please either right or left It takes real vigilance to screen each call for help They're closing in to take you down Well ain't this story tragic? Dragged into the dark abyss surfing into madness Phishing scams Sickening spam Madness…madness…madness… You tried to steal from me what you never had Took pains to shelter me from good things—not bad Now it's your unrelenting voice that's driving me mad Gotta wise up It's time to climb up and crawl right out of this place Bots and worms Makin me squirm They can hear you They can hear me Uniforms in hot pursuit chasing after ecstasy It leaves you dry This cocktail you've been swallowing You walk the street alone but you don't know who's been following I don't wanna play—stop the game! Gotta get back—ain't that a fact? My brain is on a binge again and on the wrong track I tried to hide the evidence My poor mother found it She caught me going hardcore surfing into madness Could all this mayhem mean we're going straight to hell?
9.
Trigonometry 04:07
Make love to jazz and dance in the rain Pour yourself a nightcap to soften your brain Fill the yard with pets if they make you laugh Lock the year-end bonus in to thank your staff Stop driving with your fist in the air This is not the way! You wanna be remembered down there? The holidays were good to you so give some back It doesn't matter how—just stick to those who lack That gurgling in your stomach just means you've had enough So drop some change in the beggar's cup He'll sing some wicked stuff Put the humble pie back in your mouth You were bound to hit a wall as your positions went south We just don't give a damn about the rich guy's predicament So you lost a bundle too Do you think we even notice it? Start the day with supplements and herbal tea Book another weekend with friends you hardly see Tell your dad you'd love to share an evening at the pub Package up a golf game and a happy ending back rub Fight the urge to grab the ice cream and cake The last few pounds are hardest when you eat what you bake You can own the table once you figure out why The planets don't align in your favor all the time She made it with a college girl That's unfair competition! But don't indulge in quid pro quo to flame her worst suspicions Walk away and don't look back you've come this far Rise up to meet the challenge Show them who you are When life hands you lemons you know what to do Thank God for all this freedom… Get on the next cruise! Host the next conference here without an agenda Gift your box seats to your favorite bartender Avoid the big mistakes and you might forgive your parents Sure they're full of nonsense but look at what they're wearin Put the music on and play it again The dull ache may dissipate but it never ends Surprise! You're on the move again but are you really trying? It seems you're at an impasse—the rocks are really flying These questions you've been asking express what you're about But the answers won't reveal themselves until you're free from doubt Keep your date with destiny You can still make it work and so can she There are signs all around you—the promise of insight Nothing can catch you when you're running after midnight
10.
The headline said you were caught Heard a rumor that you were bought You hurt a lot of people that's for sure But we can overlook anything we can't ignore This time you were nailed We installed the patch but it failed So here's a proposition—please hear us out We're gonna uncover what you're all about Sign your name on the seventh page Be a 00-agent of the digital age Changing the way the world spins is our job Someone said getting knocked in the head Will teach you right from wrong That sounds like a good fit for a theme song Open up that backroom door Reverse engineer your doomsday plan Tell us it's a hoax in language we understand Our team leaders can show you how To separate right from wrong We knew it was you Blowing bubbles in the holes all along Maybe it's time to look around They're gonna grind you into the ground You can bury ambition and end up poor Or put twenty large aside at the end of our tour Now's the time to come clean Dismantle your digital scream Be the next megamogul…keep the girls safe There's no better way to get yourself laid Call me a misfit and threaten my job But if I needed a lecture I'd call my mom This is a pretty slim package… Start greasin my palm! I'm not what you think so don't even try You'll never teach me right from wrong Here's my wish list—you'll notice it's ten pages long My world is a sacred place My views are in focus and highly evolved So what makes you think I'm for sale? My tail wag like a dog? You can drop the pop psychology You don't really know right from wrong And now it's much too late This ain't where I belong Someone said getting knocked in the head Will teach you right from wrong That's a helluva good fit for a theme song My mind is a scary place But my views are in focus now and highly evolved Hey you're convinced it's just a game Let's end this call! I may be far from heaven But I'm right where I belong You'll never catch me I'm just not for sale Not now…not ever!
11.
The Truth 07:03
All those years feeling displaced The light on my face reflecting sadness Too much weight around my shoulders Pulled me closer to the edge of madness I struggled hard to resist temptation My albatross? The next sensation Now I'm learning how to live with that past When I'm awake I'm plagued with worry Keeps me honest so I don't deceive myself It's not a cakewalk with anyone You can't just toss pennies in the well To jump right in when the water's cold Takes a leap of faith—I've never been that bold Hope I haven't hit the ground running too fast I'll follow you if you'll ease my mind All I need is proof You're the cavalry My hero for saving my life Girl you're the truth There has to be room for conversation You've got to find some common ground It's all about sharing your secrets With someone you know who'll be around Don't look too far beyond the sunset Just be sure to give what you get That's the only way to make your love last I found the answer in your eyes When all I needed was proof You're the memory You're the future of all ages With you in my life I found the truth
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When your eyes gaze up at the moon You'll notice twin reflections One at midnight And high noon They promise only peace of mind But fill your heart with dread Perhaps a friend will touch you again And clear the space …of shadows in your head

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released June 1, 2013

All songs written, arranged and produced by Howard Lawrence and performed by Black River Sanction.

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Alternative Rock Theatre. A unique blend of art rock, jazz, electronica and psychedelia that relies heavily on mood and textures to propel thought-provoking lyrics into the deep recesses of your consciousness. It's also the creative output of a certifiable madman, albeit one with something to say. ... more

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